The 1st blog I wrote about this was on March 18th and that was after shit started going down. Really fast.
It feels like it's been a year.
Seriously it's like fucking Groundhogs Day. Everyday is the same. I get up a bit later than when I drove to work. That's kind of nice. I still shower, get dressed and put on my makeup. Then it's downstairs. I work, trying to be wary of my back/neck and posture in my crappy setup. Some days Elise is here and I'll see her and Pat throughout the day when they make their way to the kitchen. They both remote upstairs. I get distracted easily. Seymore paces constantly and I give in, taking him for multiple little walks throughout the day. We usually order out 2 nights a week. Once on the weekend. Once during the week. Trying to be good with the Stay at Home but also trying to support local businesses. We usually hit the grocery store once a week. Weekends are basically the same but it's us trying to find stuff to do around the house and if the weather is nice getting out to walk/bike/hike. Then it starts all over again. Every morning I wake up I'm sad. It's like when I wake up then it's all real. The worries. The stress. The sadness. The reality that this is actually the nightmare we're currently living in. I check the news to see any needed updates then try not to follow it too much throughout the day in order to save my sanity.
Here's today's stats:
Worldwide:
Cases -2,255,676
Deaths - 162,032
US:
Cases -742,637
Deaths -39,201
OC:
Cases -1,556
Deaths - 32
There's talk of when we "Re-Open" the economy and it doesn't look pretty. There's going to be phases. It won't be like before. It's going to be weird.
But, we continue on. Try to find the positive. Be grateful.
I found this week I was more numb. I'm tired. I'm not sleeping well at all, nor is my boyfriend. Tensions can get high. We're both on edge, snippy sometimes. I didn't cry as much as I have but I feel almost robotic. It's weird. Just like this sad acceptance. I don't know.
There is always great stuff coming from the community. The Chalk the Walk always brings a smile to my face.
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| Literally a perfect beautiful morning. |
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| Got out and did a really great hike one night |
A group on Facebook started up called Fullerton Loves Food. A bunch of my friends are locals there and they're doing 2 days a week a restaurant that everyone orders take out from. Well - the night they did Les Amis I had to partake.
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| Get in my belly!!! (And yes They had beer to go and wine) |
I opted to hit the grocery store alone this week. They're recommending that so I chose Vons since they seem to really have it down to a science and it makes for a less anxiety ridden shopping experience. I gotta say though - wearing a mask that long suuuuucks!
My adventure/photo group I created started a "The Day the World Stopped" Photo album in the group page (Thank you Amber!) and here's some of my favorite shots so far:
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| Shot by Noel Rush hour. Rainy 405 South at 7:30. |
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| Shot by Andrea |
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| Shot by Amber |
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| Shot by Andrea Fullerton loop trail |
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| Shot by Amber: Wtf is this place and how have I never seen this before? It’s 2 blocks from my apt! |
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| Shot by Amber: curled up with a good book. |
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| Shot by Noel: he tuners I ordered last week arrived, and I strung this guitar back up for the first time in years. |
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| Shot by Amber: cat toy on a ledge. |
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| Shot by Amber: Rain and blustery winds. |
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| Shot by Noel: I think this is day 31 for me? “Chicken and Avocado on Hokkaido Milk Bread” — Noel Lairson, 2020. Yes, I did just declare my own sandwich to be art. |
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| Shot by Tisha |
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| Great Girl Time! |
Pat had ordered a bunch of material to have he and Elise make masks, but when the material arrived it was too thick for masks so they made a purse! Pat helped a bit but Elise ended up getting really into it and made a great little purse!
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| Future Seamstress? |
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| Looks good on ya! |
Today is Pat's birthday. I would usually gift him with an adventure or concert or something, but obviously that can't happen in today's world but he had mentioned over the last couple of weeks some cooking items he'd like to have - so thank you Amazon! He did request a carrot cake and I gave it my best shot!
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| I hope it's delicious! |
I think it's getting harder for a lot of people. The encouraging posts have slowed. People seem to be getting more and more bored and discouraged, running out of things to do and try to keep their chins up. Parents are really struggling with getting their kids educated and now worrying about summertime and what's going to happen. There is talk of "Re-Opening" but it's just talk right now and really doesn't seem to be possible. But it has to. I mean millions of people have filed for unemployment. MILLIONS. We're reading articles about moral fatigue and grieving normalcy. People are starting to protest the Stay At Home stuff. Conspiracy theories are swirling. When will it be ok to hug my mom and my friends again? They talk of contact tracing - how the hell is that going to work? So much unknown and uncertainty. It's just strange you guys.
I know we're all in this together and I know we need to keep striving to find the positive and I am truly truly grateful. I am so lucky. Pat and I both still have jobs. We live in a comfortable home. We and our loved ones are all healthy. We have amazing technologies that can keep us connected. We're ok. I focus on that and that's what gets me through to the next day.
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