Well I've noticed I'm bombing on the blogging, but I've also noticed so has everyone else. Now that I have a new job, that’s actually quite busy all the time - I don’t have the down time I used to have at previous jobs when I probably found the time to blog the most. Ah well, life happens right? I know there are not many of you who even read this anymore, but I thank those of you who do! It’s comforting to know there's a handful of folks who like to read my ramblings on and on as you all know how much I like to ramble on and on...he he!
So the life changes are still happening, waaaaaay slower than I would prefer, but I do see a smidgen of progress. The biggest news by far is come June 5th (Sunday) will be my 3 month mark of no smoking. I cannot BELIEVE I have done it. I swear to you I have not even had a puff. It’s been hard, and my body is still reacting violently but I have done it. I've lost 2 people this month, and survived Coachella earlier and still did not pick it back up. Didn’t even cheat!!!!! Its nuts. I have not noticed a bit of difference for the good, but I'm ok with that. I know I will notice a difference when my body is done with its gnarly, violent purge of the nicotine. 6 months to a year my Dr. says. Eeeesh.
I'm still training 3 days a week-ish. I'm getting a bit frustrated because I still will not be comfortable in a 2 piece this summer. But I know it takes time. It just takes too much f-ing time. My eating habits have changed. I never really ate poorly, but I find I'm paying more attention and making more conscious efforts to grab the low fat version, or have a salad or try to balance the intake a bit more. I'll be moving more towards eating even healthier I'm sure since I'm actually not hating it. I find I'm drinking less, which means I'm learning some harsh lessons feeling like crap the next day when I drink my usual amount. Tolerances are lowering - I need to be careful. Plus the nicotine withdrawals have made my body much more sensitive to food/alcohol and other things. Ugh. I'm signed up for a ka-jillion things (Many classes at Hidden Talent Fitness coming up, Aerial hoop, Tissue dancing, Indoor Rock Climbing, a month of yoga, stand up paddle boarding and 3 wacky races and I'm sure there's more I'm forgetting) So I'm hoping to keep on the active train. I'm in a show, but actually am making time to still get the training in so that’s a first. I'm taking my vitamins. Etc. Etc. Etc. Healthy Healthy Healthy. I'm really hoping to feel a hell of a difference.
I have a goal to get out of here in less than a year now. I need my own place more than anything. That has shifted my priorities around a lot. I'm cutting out some of the fun stuff I'd love to do, but financially need to get that ex-douche's debt gone. I paid off my truck, I need to pay of his loan, buy a bed and a laptop computer then I'll be ready to move out. I have a pretty for sure place to move into as well I hope doesn’t fall through. Getting my own place again will seriously make a world of difference on me I know it. It'll be tight money wise, but I think my sanity will be worth the sacrifice.
I have a bit part in a show coming up that should be fun, and its only 2 weekends. I also have some possibilities in the burlesque world I'm considering coming up as well. So I'm trying to throw that creativity back in my life. I need it and miss it, and even miss blogging so I'm going to try to write more here and in my personal journals. I'm also trying to bring my nice camera with me places and learn it more. I'm old school and like photos just like you shoot them, not all photo-shopped and played with like everyone else in the world seems to be doing.
I've seen some amazing music as usual. You read the Coachella blog. Doheny Blues was a couple of weeks ago and I'm hoping to give it its own blog, but if not check out Tedeshi Trucks Band if you can - they blew me away. The Jimi Hendrix Tribute was also amazing, and Steve Vai stole the show. I love that damn festival. I also had a nice day on Saturday with a friend of mine walking around the Getty for hours, taking photos and learning new things. We also wandered CityWalk and saw a hilarious podcast with Kevin Smith and Ralph Garmon. I was in tears at points I was laughing so hard. A few weeks before that, I went down to San Diego and saw a friend of mine in a beautiful production of Carmen (3 1/2 hours!!!) and got a taste of the ritzy life at the after party and his temporary 3.7 million dollar pad. So a really nice collection of variety this month, different stuff. New stuff.
I'm trying to take care of me more. I'm trying to not let things get to me as much (This is hard, which is why some major changes are being made). I'm trying to be happy. I'll get there. I just wish it would hurry up. ;)
