Sunday, November 15, 2009

Coincidence...?

I dont know what I believe in.
I pray to God. I ask things of the universe. I want to say I dont believe in coincidence...but I'm not sure.
Tonight was too interesting not to at least write here...

Mom and I were sitting in the hot tub.
I've been extremely frustrated with my life lately.
I try to be positive. I honestly do. I've tried so hard.
I'm a good friend, I've done alot for others, I'm a good person. (Thank you to those who have told me lately...).
I'm still frustrated.
I'm at that point where I'm not sure if this is the right thing to say at this point, but I really need something good right now. Some significant positive change, etc. I could go on and on...I wont.
Here's what happened:
Mom and I were talking as we do sometimes, sitting in the hot tub. We were talking about life and religion and work and friends, etc.
I got frustrated. I vented. I told her how I feel, and that I'm unhappy and its getting more and more frustrating each day.
We laughed like we do, she teased my sarcasm.
I told her I need something. Something positive. A job I love. SOMETHING.
I shit you not:
I turned up to the universe or God or I dont know and shouted -
"THROW ME A FUCKING BONE!"
Mom laughed.
I saw a huge shooting star. Seriously. Like 1 second after I shouted.
My jaw dropped.
"I just saw a fucking shooting star"
Mom laughed again.
"See - there's your answer" she said. "I've never seen a shooting star out here, and that happens".
I could only blush.
That was fucking weird.

I can only hope.