I feel very heavy this morning. Exhausted. Sad. Heartbroken. Disappointed. And worst of all - hopeless. Don't worry, I'll come out of this, but I'm allowing space to feel defeated right now.
I'm so sad that our country is majority in favor of a man who fuels hate like wildfire. Whose an arrogant, delusional, hateful billionaire that for some reason people stand behind. Don't talk to me about the media skewing what I see. Don't talk to me about you actually believing that this horrible person gives any sort of shit about anyone in this country - including you who voted for him. I'm so fucking tired of people saying "Don't let politics interfere with your relationships". If you voted for this beacon of hate that says something about you as a person. That says to me, that you don't care about the rights of everyone in this country and I'm never going to be ok with that. It tells me that you would rather put someone in the White House that has turned politics upside down and into a hateful circus.
Don't get me wrong - I'm perfectly aware that politics is it's own monster. It can be shady, deceiving, I can go on and on. But I always held out hope - that my vote, my voice would be heard in things that matter. Things like equal rights for every damn one regardless of gender, religion, sexuality, color. We're all humans and we're all equal. My priorities and passions are to help others, to care, to be equal. He is the opposite of all of that. He has brought out the ugly underbelly of hateful, angry, racist, fascist people of this country that has broken my heart to see how many there actually are.
I've lost faith in our country.
I was losing faith in humankind, but I see the messages of hope. I see the heartbreak and feel the sadness. There is still so many of us out there who care, who want to help, and that let's my tiny flame of hope still burn.
Do not try to change my mind, or how I feel, I will walk away. I'm absolutely done.
My focus now is going to be re-centered and trying to continue to practice kindness in these difficult times. I am hear if you need to grieve, if you need an ear, if you need a hug, if you need some wine.
Take care of yourself my friends.
